I do not like sitting in the front row at church. I don't even like sitting in the first 10 rows at church. I know..how can I go to church and get so insecure about sitting towards the front. It is almost like a death sentence. I get so nervous and worry the whole time on what people are thinking of me. Sad!?! I know...we are in church!!!
Last week my darling husband sat us in the 3rd row. I could not focus on the sermon. I kept praying that I would quit worrying what people thought..so I could listen with an open heart. I wasn't impressed with my darling husband. He knew I get anxiety sitting in the front.
So this week knowing how he loves sitting towards the front I took off to the VERY FRONT row!! He looked at me like " WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!" I smiled and thought well..if you want the front then go for it and that I did...and I LOVED IT!!! I had to get over the fear that 1) our children's number would start flashing any moment for us to get them and we must leave the front row and WALK in front of everyone 2) that when I worship there would be people thinking bad things...3) we would always have to have the front row...
I have no idea why I am sharing this but It was a life changing moment...I was filled to the brim yesterday!! I have no idea if it was because of the front row or if it was because I did cast my fears to the side and went for it...it was empowering!!
About Me
- the story of my life...
- I am the oldest of 4 children. Born with hands on my hip and orders flying out of my mouth. I grew up fast. My thoughts swirl in my head over and over before I will post them...mainly due to the fact I can't type or spell very good or is it well? I have always been the take control organize and plan everything child. Until I had kids...now they take control and they plan everything. I married the love of my life over 10 years ago. On the days I think of trading him in I remember I must give up my in-laws...I would never do that! I wonder if I could get visitation with them? I spend most of the days convincing my children that just because your born doesn't mean you "get" to go to Disneyland, have a cell phone or any other snazzy item that will break my bank. I have to count to 20 everyday before I lose my temper and barely make it to 8 before I lose my patience. I have to tell my kids everyday at least 5 times I love them just to try and help them forget how Not so perfect I am. This is the story of our life...I hope you enjoy and if you don't feel free to email me at Captianclock@aol.com
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2 ...Stalker Comments:
Yea Tiffiny!!!
We always sit in the 2nd row ... and we have to get there 20 minutes early so that we can have the WHOLE row.
However, this week we had to sit in the very back row during worship, because we were involved in the service. (We carried the cross up to the stage.) Anyway, none of us could focus on worship at all, because there were way too many distractions. We so missed our upfront seats.
Welcome to the front row!
Laurel :)
Hehe, I saw you guys in the front row...i thought, how brave she is...I made it up to the 3rd row that day. ;) Perhaps we will join you in the front row next time!
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