I like being us

Two people are better then one,for they can help each other succeed.

If one person fails , the other can reach out and help.

But , if you are alone you are in real trouble.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Tears slid down my eyes last night..I wept quietly as I finally laid all the kids in bed at 10pm. Late night for us. I wasn't sure why. I am capable of handling all the kids. I think in some aspects it will be good. No dinner for the man of the house, no 'other" schedule, one less laundry pile and so forth. I wept because I already missed him. They where tears of gratitude, tears of disappointment that I was home and he was gone, tears of amazement.

I woke up to an email from him. sent at 5:31 am our time..He was in London on his lay over. In the subject line it read "miss ya" He let me know that traveling with out me was just as hard on him as it was me. He told me he loved me. I wept again. We are best friends. We fight like an old married couple and sometimes pass in the hallways like brothers and sisters , But nothing beats having him as my best friend, my husband, the love of my life.

Sometimes you are to tired to talk at the end of the day. Sometimes I want him to hush while I watch my shows..but lost night I wanted him here to make fun of me while I cried during Grey's Anatomy. I could hear his words...I could hear him saying.."Aww..honey, this is why I love you...you cry at everything!"

I like being us. I like being Jeremy and Tiffiny. You only get one Jeremy and Tiffiny and I am happy with that being us.

I really didn't think this would be hard...He is on trip. Many, many husbands travel for week at a time but it is harder then I thought. It was a combo of things. From Olivia crying all night for her dad, waking up at 3:30 am for her dad to hug her "sheepy' ( a stuffed Rhino she calls sheepy and sleeps with every night) to Matthew asking me if there was any dad duties he could do, that made it just a tad bit emotional.

The count down is on...

You have to be kidding me!?!?

On Tuesday I had to go in for a back procedure. It is a series of diagnostic testing on your Nerves and discs. It requires and Epidural feeling down your leg , IV and Scans...I couldn't walk for 16 hours and then for the next day had kinda a lame leg but know I am back to my normal.

During the scans the doctor mentioned I should really be concerned about my IUD. He could see it on the scan. It was pushed up to the right side and backwards. He was hoping that I wouldn't need surgery to remove it. As I lay on the table...I am thinking " You have to be kidding me!?" My luck I will have baby number 4 on the way.

I bring the image into my regular doctor who then wants me to get in right away. He also told me he must do a pregnancy test on me. This is where I think I really need anti-Anxiety medication. Good thing it was negative I might of had to be committed right then and there.

.he does the wonderful exam and finds that it doesn't appear to be in and danger but I need to do an ultrasound next week and then we can go from there. If they need to remove It..Jeremy told me that he is getting a vasectomy!!

This is SO the story of my life!!

A bit of information....

Here is some information on Jeremy's trip...

This trip is the culmination of 8 months of training and discipleship through Dream Realization School http://dreamrealizationschool.com/index.html through North County Christ the King church. Through the lessons taught, my understanding of scripture and spiritual freedom has deepened. In learning about other religions, I've come to appreciate what God has done to restore us to a relationship with him so much more.

While all other religions are based on works with man reaching out to an impersonal God, Christianity is the only religion where God has reached down to man and wants to be so personal, He calls us his kids and his friends.

On this trip we will be:

* Meeting with pastors from around the region to encourage them.
* Helping deliver food parcels and pray with refugees.
* Getting to know and understand the customs, culture and spiritual history of Jordan and the Middle East.
* Worshiping with believers in their church, as well as under the desert stars.
* Visiting two orphanages and a deaf school.
* Using drama to communicate, and teaching English.
* Help with farming.
* Doing some home repair, painting and other practical help.
* Working with and praying for the sick in a medical clinic.
* We'll be taking toys, backpacks, fabric for sewing, and other useful items.

Thanks Becky :0)...Safe travels to you!

Thursday's with Tiffiny

What a crazy week already and it doesn't look like a full day home in my jammies is anywhere in sight...That's okay..last week I was home for 5 days straight...So this week it really keeps my mind and body moving...I kinda like it at times. I don't think I could work full-time right now. I would be a nutcase. Laundry is backed up, dishes, suitcases, toys, blankets and such piled everywhere. The fridge needs a good wipe down but those are small compared to the fact that My husband is leaving for 10 days to follow Jesus. Exciting!! He is visiting 2 orphanages...I found that out yesterday...Awesome!! I think that if I ever go on missions trip I would be all over the orphanage's...I would then want to bring all the babies home. It would break my heart. I can't go to the dog pound without crying. One day ...I truly beileve that we will get to visit Orphanages together and hold the babies..blow bubbles with them and pray for them and with them. Oh, how my heart melts just thinking of it!!



I am Thankful for.. I am still in awe over the fact that so many of you supported Jeremy's trip. We are amazed a God's faithfulness to see this journey through. We took a leap of faith and knew that if we where doing God's work he would provide and he did!! We are so grateful to everyone of you who sent cards with inspirational testimonies and others who are praying for us and for me as I go at it by myself for 11 days. He loved getting all the phone calls last night from family wishing him all the best and telling him how much they loved him. This has to be my favorite part!! I am big on showing people how much I love them and what they mean to me and to see the support coming our way was a genuine blessing.







I'm listening to... Little bear in the background and carter stirring from his bed. It is peaceful right now. If I could type this during the most hectic time of day you would be laughing...at me and not with me



What's for Dinner Tonight... I have no idea...I will be lucky to survive the day!! Maybe Mickey Mouse chicken Nuggets and ???


Missing.... I will be missing my husband. I will miss his smile, his helping hands, his calmness and willing helpful spirit. I am full of mixed emotions. I am happy for him but at the same time nervous and scared. I am looking forward to seeing him after his trip, maybe he will find a Boy scout shirt on his travels!

** Happy travels Jeremy!! I love you and I am very proud of you!! I can't wait for the updates! (Hint, Hint!)

Exhausted...

Yes, I am still here.....Just had a weird and busy week...Jeremy is getting packed. He leaves tomorrow!! He still needs a tetanus shot and well, a few more IMPORTANT things he is waiting to do!! How can I get him to be more stressed out???!! I mean what I am saying is sometimes I want him to be like Kate from Jon and Kate plus 8...you know the crazy screaming I need to get stuff done Kate??

Oh, I don't have much time to share with you what a week it has been...I wish I did. Hang on for a ton of posts coming your way!!


And THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who came by or mailed checks to support the trip!! We made our Goal!! I also packed Bubbles, tootsie pops, toothbrushes and paste along with some soccer balls!! Many, Many blessing to all of you!!

You can google ANYTHING!!

okay, So I maybe a bit slow to this whole computer world..but how jazzy is this!!?? You can put ANYTHING into google..I put in "packing list for Jordan missions trip" and BAM!! I got like 3 good lists! I find this whole thing AWESOME!! I have so many things to google...

* how to get pen off my couch, walls, clothes, blankets, tubs

* How to cut your children's hair from home

*how to raise a 12 year old

* how to tell if your child is in a gang (HA!! JOKING!)

* How to be the bestest friend

* How to twinkle your nose and land a cleaning fairy

Oh, the endless possibilities.......What will you google!?!?

I can see clearly now the rain is

still here..and I have just gotten better at seeing.

Seriously. Will this rain ever go away? Makes me grumpy.Tired.Blah. I went to bed at 9 last night..kids in bed at 7 and they are still sleeping! NICE! So I am hoping that today is productive...after the much needed rest.

Hope you all had a great Mother's day. I did. I got to fit everyone who mothers us into our weekend. I even pulled off 5 loads of laundry. Now that earns me the mother of the year award! they have clean clothes.

Nothing to exciting to blog about. I am getting ready to prepare for 10 days of pure bliss...I mean chaos. I have lots to do. I swear every time he (that being Mr. Perfect) opens his mouth it is in regards for me to do something for him. Urgh..He is almost to laid back for me. Never makes plans and waits last minute for EVERYTHING!! Um...who's Passport just arrived Saturday? Who still need 1 shot before leaving? Hello!?! Your leaving in like 3 days!!! I give up trying to help him plan anything. Vacations, over nighters, dinner...nothing in his life is planned..drives me CrazY!! and yes, I still love him..So for all of you out there who thinks I am bashing my spouse..I am. :0) Good thing he doesn't read this. But if by chance he does...I love you honey. I really do.

I am not looking forward to the 10 days. I have mixed emotions about him leaving. I am Excited for him to have such a life changing event but what if something happens to him? What ifs cross my mind frequently. I know God is complete control. I really do know that. I know he has the perfect plan for us not so perfect people.

Olivia is sick. This crud really needs to stop floating around the house. Seriously, I have sprayed every thing down...killing 99.9% of bacteria with my Lysol. I have armed all the door handle's,phones, counters, and toys with Lysol...I have even reminded everyone to wash their hands over and over..no, we don't have the swine flu..just a nasty cold.

Well, my fellow stalkers...I am off to get something done. Maybe I should have Jeremy take the computer to work with him...then I could concentrate on doing stuff. Naw, that would be torture.

Have a great week!!

** The reactions on each post is simple way for you to leave quick feedback on the posts...If you Love it, like it or want me to shut-up...your choice :) Just click on the box that you agree with....Matthew..if your reading this..I so know your the Shut-up clicker!! HA!

Many Blessing's to me...

As I write this...Carter is sleeping and the house is quiet. I should be getting in the shower or cleaning the kitchen. I should really tidy up the house but I am savoring the quiet. Jeremy took the 3 older kids camping overnight...so I don't have any chaos right now. I can hear the hum of the washer, the trickle of the fish tank and the birds chirping.

I am not the perfect mother. I make mistakes. Sometimes big ones. I get irritated quickly when the house is not tidy at all times. I know that the family doesn't care. They want the fun. playful, happy mom...I have realized this over the last few months. They really don't care that the finger prints are all over the doors, the floors have last night dinner on them. They care is I sit on the couch and have my lap open for them.

After many prayers over and over on how to not be so impatient It came to me that my children and the work load are not a burden. They are a blessing. There are days I forget such a thing. I can't see past the dirt, mess, the loading and unloading of the diaper bags, dishwasher, wash machine or laundry baskets. I can't get them to stop fighting or picking on each other. I try to control every moment but I can't...

I am not a huge Dr. Phil lover but the one thing Jeremy and I ask each other when we are facing a brick wall and we seem to think that our method is right, our thinking process is right on...we ask " how is this working for you?" It wasn't...it wasn't working for us. That's when we had to change our views...they are a blessing not a burden...and that seems to be working for us!!

Knowing that I don't have very many years left with Matthew to show him everything I can..makes me sad...18 and college will be here very very soon. I want him to remember that he was such a blessing in our lives...and with all of them...I want them to understand that having siblings is a blessing...they will get to be an aunt or an Uncle some day...and nobody will love them they way they love each other.

I love my blessing's!! All 4 of them!!

They have all earned me the honor of receiving Mom of the year ....

Click here to see my award....

Happy Mother's day !!

** Thanks Michelle for the award!! They even spelled my name right!! Love you!!

My other mom...

I have another mom...She has been my "other mom" for over 10 years and I love her more and more with each passing day. She is an incredible woman. How do I know she is incredible!?! Well, she loves me and she isn't afraid to show it. She takes care of me and protects me when needed. She calls me at least once a week to see how I am.

She is supportive even if we make the wrong choices. She helps us learn from our mistakes and celebrates each victory with us. She is an incredible realtor even earning the title of Realtor of the year a few years ago....she has a busy schedule but never to busy when we need her!!

My friends remind me all the time how lucky I am to have the best mother-in-law. They don't have to remind me...I know how lucky I am. I know what a great woman-mom she is...I married her son. She must have done something right because think he is just as amazing as her....

Pure Motherhood...

I am a mom. How exciting is that!?
What a blessing. What a joy. What heartache. What overwhelming emotions.

My life is a journey of pure motherhood right now. My story is consumed by 4 kids at this time. My life is consumed by mommy thoughts...
"how did that get there!?!", "Don't play in the toilet" , "Play nice or your not playing at all" You want me to give you something to cry about?" I am the mom and I said so" "wait till your dad gets home!" Don't bite, hit or kick your brother-sister!"


I spent the day with my mom yesterday. Took her to get her haircut. 16 inches of hair cut off !! she also got it colored. I love my mom. Yes, growing up was very hard. I was the oldest. I had to protect her. I had to help her. I had to take care of her. She did the best she could and I love her for that and admire her deeply now that I am a mom. One thing ( I have many things)I love about my mom is she never put herself first. She never really thought she was worth it. She had to work 3 jobs to put food on the table. She had 3 kids at home, all 10 months apart. She lost a baby after me, I have watched her struggle with the grief. Something I can not relate to. It has taken me years to understand she did do her best...and that is why I love her. She never gave up and I am sure there where times she wanted to.

I love when she is over here. She still gives me advice all day long. Some I just nod and smile at and other times I listen. She still parents me.... and that is okay. One day I will only have the memories of her on Mother's day...and all her advice.

* Your giving Carter to big of bites.
* You need to water your flowers
* fold your laundry this way and you can fit more in the drawer
* Your being to hard on Matthew
* I wouldn't change that color
* you need to keep her in a time out..don't give in!
* don't worry
* If you mop your floors at night it will be easier then now.
* I made you come home right after school

I wouldn't change any of this for anything....

I have been following this families story...It will make you cry and melt your heart.

Happy Mother's day.