Access Allowed

Blogger has a new feature that will allow you to see who is reading your blog. It is a cool feature that will allow you to see how many hits you get a day, week, month and it even breaks it down to the hour. It will let you see where your visitors are coming from ( Canada, Thailand) and will let you see the keyword people use to search for your blog.

If I wanted to be rich off this I would blog about my husband and my life anonymously and care about how people find my blog, then I wouldn't care who found me but when you find that you have CREEPERS looking at your blog for S**ual stuff you tend to go a bit nuts and lock it down.

I was a bit overwhelmed by the response I got when I went private..I am sorry to all you readers out there. NOBODY was allowed access so PLEASE quit taking it so personal. I changed a few settings so now you should be able to read it without logging into a google account, but I would encourage you to set up a google account ( this is very easy) so if these setting's do not work, then you will be able to view the blog and comment on my post so I don't feel like I am being stalked I will send out an invite to your email address and then you will be able to read it. If you do not get an invite this means I don't like you then email me.

So whatcha going to do???

Set up a google account

Comment on the posts you love

and continue stalking me...

Mu ah!! xoxoxox

Your Home Is Not for Show

Yep, that is what a good friend told me a few weeks back...that must have been because she seen me a WRECK because my counter was full of crap, toys strung from one end of the house to another, I am sure there was toys in the toilets, toilet paper wrapped around a baby doll, soap nicely dispensed all over the counter with soapy hand prints covering my bathroom mirror, or the fact every toy bin had been dumped out and was resting nicely into a large heap that I had to walk over to get to the dresser.

The shoe bin had been dumped out by the door , the dogs food was thrown all around, there was enough food under the counters for a complete 5 course meal...

Why would I freak out? I mean really?

As my good friend had mentioned, my house was not for show...a family actually lived here.

My response was a family of monkeys live here...at least nobody was flinging poo

( not yet anyways)

In Your Dreams...

Maybe it was the heartache I felt sending my "baby" to 8th grade today , maybe it was the emotions I feel knowing my princess will be 5 in few weeks or maybe it is the fact we still have an empty chair at the dinner table. Whatever it maybe , has had me dreaming of a baby the last few weeks. I wake up with joy in my heart and an automatic sense of chaoticness ( that could be because it is chaotic) as I stumble to the coffee pot. Does this feeling ever end? Do you really know your done having children? Yes, situations make it harder for us at this time in our life to justify having a baby and the fact my in-laws and best friend would think we are nutso...Maybe one day I can get another princess...my Lucy Sue. Until then...I will dream , and cherish the others chaotic blessings...

Hey Mom Call Me

When I met Jeremy he would tell me all the time if he ever won the lottery he would spend his days taking the elderly out to coffee, everyday that he could. I will never forget that. I could see how much he loved his grandparents and the elderly.

Jeremy's grandparent's are WONDERFUL, all of them.

They will call him if their TV isn't working , he will drop everything and go and help them, whatever their need maybe. He will stop by for coffee and cookies ( as Grandma will always have cookies) My kids love going to see them ( they know grandma will load them up on cookies) and they love seeing the kids.

When Matthew was about 7-9 years old they would go every Monday and have 3:00 coffee and cookies. Jeremy would try to limit Matthew to 3 cookies but always turned a blind eye when Grandma would sneak Matthew a few more for good measure.

When I had my first Surgery Grandma was in California. She spent 2 days trying to call me at the hospital, not knowing I had been sent home to recover.

Grandma is in her 90's as well as Grandpa and I have to tell you they are amazing.

We went to visit Grandma yesterday as she was recovering from hip surgery. She looked good in spite of all the pain she was in. She was very happy to see us and good thing she wasn't to embarrassed as my kids ran up & down the hallways making friends with the health care staff.

One of the highlights was the fact Grandma had cookies in her recovery room, making the kids so excited!!

Jeremy went later in the evening to bring Grandpa back home after his visit with Grandma...as they where leaving Grandpa bent down to kiss Grandma , patted her arm and tells her...

..Hey mom, why don't you call me when you think your coming home, give me a few days notice so I can clean the house. It is not to bad, I think you can get in...

My heart melted as Jeremy told me the story....that sounds just like Jeremy & I...I call him when I am about an hour away from home so he can "clean the house" and if you know Grandma you know everything has to be just right at home...just like me.

When I told Jeremy that totally reminded me of us...he smiled and said I know, I had to tell you it was the sweetest thing ever!

Today Jeremy is "babysitting" his other Grandpa for the day. His Grandma has to be out of town for the day , she called Jeremy to ask him to babysit Grandpa ( as he has Alzheimer's) and without hesitation he said yes....

What a very unselfish man who teaches me and our children everyday how to love others and put others before yourself.

" Love the Lord God with all your heart, with all your soul and all your mind" This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is just like it " LOVE your neighbor as yourself"

Matthew 22:37-39

Quick update

Here is a quick update on my back...

It still hurts ...

Okay, I will give you a bit more then that..

I have had continuing leg pain that I swear has never gone away and not one surgery has fixed it. The 3rd surgery was the most helpful but not 100% curable.

I am scheduled for an MRI to see if another surgery will be needed. My doctor doesn't recommend another one and at this point I don't care...what could it really hurt? I mean c'mon if it has any chance of taking away the pain then I will go for it. However, since he doesn't recommend it unless absolutely necessary I am looking at other options.

Sometimes I feel as if I am walking around broken....I look normal but inside I am sad and disappointed that there has not been a relief to the pain in over 4 almost 5 years...could you imagine walking around with a broken arm or leg even a finger for 5 years and yet, trying to live life?

I have 4 reasons to get out of bed each morning...

I adore them and they adore me.

No peeing on your sister

I am really starting wonder if my kids are normal. Yep, you can guess by the title of this post that naughtiness has stuck again.

So, Miss America is eating breakfast in her chair ( an overstuffed kids chair) and she starts screaming.

I ignore her and continue on facecracking it.

She comes running to me and is covered in something....yea, that would be pee.

GROSS!!

Carter had taken it upon himself to pee on her.

GROSS!!!

I clean her up , punish Carter and put the chair outside to dry.

Fast forward 4 hours later.....

Olivia goes to get the chair and I look outside just in time to see Carter doing the pee stance, ready to aim.....

URGHHH.....

Needless to say he got in BIG trouble...and now walks around the house yelling...

I NOT PEE ON LALA!!

Well jeez kid I hope you don't pee on her again, what are you a dog?

* Carter name for Olivia is Lala....he can't say Olivia

Why Hello!

aww...my blog..how I have missed you. I have not even signed into my blog account for awhile and that means I have about 200 blog post to read. YIKES!

I can't sleep. My mind is a racing.

I made a "to do list" of 56 things I need to accomplish in the next few weeks. My mind is ready for them but my body is not. I broke the list down into manageable chunks , now let me NOT lose the list or let life get in the way.

You will need to bare with me. I still can't load pictures on this super slow thing I call a computer...that means you might not see what I found in my strawberries or all the pictures of my darling kiddos.

Why is it I even attempt to check out library books? I pay more in late charges then any person I know. I mean how hard is it to grab the 4 items and drop them off 4 blocks away? Obviously to hard or I wouldn't owe 5.46

Why is it that you spend so much time worrying about if people like you or not? I mean really? Who cares if they do or don't? Why do people consume themselves with playing games pitting friends against friends? Why is it people can't say no without feeling guilty? Why is it your the one who has to reach out and having no one reach back? Why can't people take words for what they are? Why must people project their own insecurities on others? Why do people try to let others get to know them, when the other doesn't care to know them?

These are the questions that roll around in my head and I know that I will NEVER get the answers. So I let it go....but hey if you have the answers fill me in!

Went to the spray park today...the lids LOVED it! Well the little ones did. Mr. I am to cool for anything because I am 14 tried to enjoy it. Aww.. the joys of having such a huge age gap. If any of you think it is easier then having kids2-3 years apart you are mistaken..BIG TIME!

Olivia will be 5 in a few weeks...a no frills party has turned into a a " BIG FRILLS ' party...

Carter my baby ( and always will be) has an obsession with tractors. Has to sleep with a tractor & trailer every night.

I am suppose to be working on my home school lesson plans...I have to turn them in by Friday...urghh once again my procrastination gets the best of me.

Jeremy & Matthew where wrestling around last week and Matthew took Jeremy down , resulting a rib injury for Jer. Matthew felt bad but I think inside he was thinking he was Mr. tough pants..

I feel bad...but it was kinda funny..

Until next time...

I promise it won't be a long time...

I have been Surviving

Yep, I need some time way from the blog.

My thoughts seems to be going in a directions that I would rather not share due the fact they would make me look like a crazy. No seriously, I have been in pain and pain doesn't help my attitude.

I just wish that there was something, anything the doctor could do for me. My good days seems far and few. I try to put on the " I am okay, everything is great " face but that that is getting old too....

We had a great family vacation with the in-laws. It was so nice to get away. Waking up everyday to the sun was definitely good for the spirit. I was even able to finish a book ( that has not happened in over a year) and get a tan. What sucked was coming home to having no plumbing and having Roto-Rooter come out 2 times to fix the problem, I mean really fridge goes out right before we leave and then the plumbing. Nothing like an 800.00 week in the home owners department ( and they say this the American Dream)

I have been busy with just keeping up with the kids and all the family activities. My best friend even emailed me asking if she had made me mad because we have not seen each other or talked really in over a month.

So where have I been? I have been surviving.

Another Month

Thought you might want an update on the family...since it has been one month since the last post. I wonder if I even still have any blog stalkers out there? I wonder if they missed me?



Today we celebrate 12 years of marriage. To me it is an accomplishment. He is my best friend , my life, my everything. I could not imagine life without him. Everyday we work at it. I savor everyday with him.



I also know that after 12 years love changes...



* your heart fills up with thankfulness that he calls you in the middle of the day



* you can make mistakes and know he forgives you ( like not getting him card on your anniversary)



* He can make you laugh



* He gets your humor



* He knows "your crazy eyes" look



* He knows what food you like and don't like



* He cooks dinner , even though I stay home



* He is the one I cry for every time I get out of surgery



* He gets me ( and that is hard for anyone)



Life is not perfect. Marriage is not perfect. Life is hard. Marriage is hard.

But everything seems a bit easier when you walk through it with your best friend.

Why Not?

Why not have your fridge & freezer go out on a 93 degree day? Why not fork over 300.00 bucks to fix it right after you spent your monthly budget on Popsicles and slip & Slides? Why not scrub your freezer/fridge clean on a very hot day? Why not lose 150.00 in food?

Why wake up in excrucitating pain 5days ago knowing full well something is not right? Why not sit around and wait for the doctor to call you back?

I am having a not.so.very.unhappy.day.

But I then remember why not me? There are people with much less "everything" then me.

There are people hungry and hurting.

So I am turning this around....thanks to my hubby who has had to hear me cry at least 3 times today ( damn monthly PMS)

Honey, Lets look on the bright side...what if the fridge went out when we went on a vacation? what if we came back to that smell?

He is right.

What if?

Bright side...My brother in law loaned us his air conditioner so we have a very cool bedroom...my mother n law called at a not so good time today and offered to brave the heat and crowds to try and find me a pool for the kids since our got a hole in it yesterday.

Awww....on my not.so.very.rotten.day I still have family who loves us.

So I think...