Major Major Migraine going on today. I have not showered and want to lay in a dark room. However we all know I have kids and having kids means you, as the mom and main person in charge must be on top of the game at all times.
My head is killing me and today was my only day to get this house clean for the big Friday night event..my baby is turning 2! I managed to make my bed today thinking that was pointless..I have laid down about every 10 minutes and that has created bigger messes.
My heart is sad today and not because I have a migraine but because I feel all this sadness around me. Many families are dealing with major illness and even death. Here is an email from a high school friends mom...
" This is a hard one...Our daughter Tausha was rushed to emergency tonight.Her head pain became more frequent and more intense. MRI, Cat Scan shown a fairly large size mass in her right frontal lobe above her right ear. The mass is bleeding into her brain. She will need surgery.Not sure i...f malignant.... Please pray for Tausha, Franco and the lil boys. They need their mommy."
Tausha has 2 boys...one who just turned 2 on Friday and a 2 week old. Please lift them up in your prayers.
Please lift up Baby Case's Family in prayer as they are trying to find a new "normal"
Sometimes a headache doesn't seem so bad...
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Monday, February 1, 2010
Stepping into the Power
This past weekend I was invited by my dear friend Julie , to attend a women's conference. I was not sure what to expect as I had not heard much of the conference.
When I arrived I was already exhausted. My van is on the verge of breaking down and my husband did not want me to drive it out to the conference so I had to arrange a ride , find a sitter very last minute due to the fact he called to tell me he had to work till 9pm...
Sometimes I think is going away really worth it? This time I can say it was SOOO worth it. I had quiet time all weekend. The featured speaker was Lori Salierno and she AWESOME! There was a ton of give aways and spiritual motivation all 3 days!
This was the first conference held by Women Of Whatcom and they did an amazing job.
So back to reality. Back to referring and cleaning..back to picking up the toys 1.2 million times a day...back to chubby little cheeks, hugs, kisses and even a semi clean house!!
When I arrived I was already exhausted. My van is on the verge of breaking down and my husband did not want me to drive it out to the conference so I had to arrange a ride , find a sitter very last minute due to the fact he called to tell me he had to work till 9pm...
Sometimes I think is going away really worth it? This time I can say it was SOOO worth it. I had quiet time all weekend. The featured speaker was Lori Salierno and she AWESOME! There was a ton of give aways and spiritual motivation all 3 days!
This was the first conference held by Women Of Whatcom and they did an amazing job.
So back to reality. Back to referring and cleaning..back to picking up the toys 1.2 million times a day...back to chubby little cheeks, hugs, kisses and even a semi clean house!!
Friday, January 29, 2010
Friday Facts
Thankful For:
You know every time I go to post Friday Facts and I pause to think of what I am thankful for family pops in my head...this week I would have to say has been a rough one..starting out on Sunday when Carter broke his grandma's center piece candle holder. I got to talking and thought Matthew had it under control...I thought wrong. Broken glass everywhere..not to mention it was really my fault..Sorry Mom.
Then as the week progresses FULL SPEED ahead I realized that turning my back on kids is a huge mistake. I now either wake up before them and shower and if I don't they both must join me in our shower. If that means I have tonka trucks, barbies, rubic cubes, and 3 of us crammed into a shower then that's what it means.
I am thankful for each new morning. I am thankful that when I make the "ugly face"
(as Miss America would call my " your really going to get it! I can't believe you guys just did that look!") They forget about it the next day. How do I know this?? They repeat the same behavior so either they forgot about my "ugly face" or it just not that ugly to make a lasting impression.
I am also Thankful for finding jeans that fit Miss America..she has not worn jeans in 2 years ..so it was exciting for me to have her try them on last night without hearing how tight they where and how she hated them..
I found 2.28 cent twin sheets, 6.00 king sheets and 2pack pillow cases for 2 48 at Target. SCORE!!
Thanks Tiffani for the tip!
Listening To: The hum of the dishwasher...both kids are still sleeping. Perfect morning.
What's For Dinner: well, I am going to a 3 days women's conference..so I am sure I will pop open a can of spaghetti'O's add a fruit and call it dinner. I did make Jeremy good dinners all week so he had left overs and he LOVES that.
Looking Forward To:
Sleeping through the night...Carter finally moved into a crib...and has great medication for his tummy so he is only waking up 2 times a night if that.. So this weekend I am going to savor each Minute of precious sleep.
Carter turns 2 on Wednesday!! { enter sad mommy face here}
and just aside note: NOT looking forward to: Paying taxes that are due Sunday..Buzz kill right there.
I am needing or wanting:
Nothing really. I would like to go to a warm place for a few days.
Missing:
The days I used to feel good. The pain free days. This week if I would have felt better I think I could have handled the crazy life of 2 kids, or maybe not.
Quote of The Week:
MOM!!!!!!! { really loud in a whiny,tattling tone}
You know every time I go to post Friday Facts and I pause to think of what I am thankful for family pops in my head...this week I would have to say has been a rough one..starting out on Sunday when Carter broke his grandma's center piece candle holder. I got to talking and thought Matthew had it under control...I thought wrong. Broken glass everywhere..not to mention it was really my fault..Sorry Mom.
Then as the week progresses FULL SPEED ahead I realized that turning my back on kids is a huge mistake. I now either wake up before them and shower and if I don't they both must join me in our shower. If that means I have tonka trucks, barbies, rubic cubes, and 3 of us crammed into a shower then that's what it means.
I am thankful for each new morning. I am thankful that when I make the "ugly face"
(as Miss America would call my " your really going to get it! I can't believe you guys just did that look!") They forget about it the next day. How do I know this?? They repeat the same behavior so either they forgot about my "ugly face" or it just not that ugly to make a lasting impression.
I am also Thankful for finding jeans that fit Miss America..she has not worn jeans in 2 years ..so it was exciting for me to have her try them on last night without hearing how tight they where and how she hated them..
I found 2.28 cent twin sheets, 6.00 king sheets and 2pack pillow cases for 2 48 at Target. SCORE!!
Thanks Tiffani for the tip!
Listening To: The hum of the dishwasher...both kids are still sleeping. Perfect morning.
What's For Dinner: well, I am going to a 3 days women's conference..so I am sure I will pop open a can of spaghetti'O's add a fruit and call it dinner. I did make Jeremy good dinners all week so he had left overs and he LOVES that.
Looking Forward To:
Sleeping through the night...Carter finally moved into a crib...and has great medication for his tummy so he is only waking up 2 times a night if that.. So this weekend I am going to savor each Minute of precious sleep.
Carter turns 2 on Wednesday!! { enter sad mommy face here}
and just aside note: NOT looking forward to: Paying taxes that are due Sunday..Buzz kill right there.
I am needing or wanting:
Nothing really. I would like to go to a warm place for a few days.
Missing:
The days I used to feel good. The pain free days. This week if I would have felt better I think I could have handled the crazy life of 2 kids, or maybe not.
Quote of The Week:
MOM!!!!!!! { really loud in a whiny,tattling tone}
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
and tomorrow...
I get to wake up to a brand new day...3 posts on how I am so OVER today...
So Carter is deciding he wants to potty trained and has no fear of carrying his load to me in his hands. Gross.
Olivia decided to take the dog for a walk, however the dog took her for a walk..down the stairs and into a tree...now she has a big fat lip and a bruised knee.
I stepped on a matchbox car. Not fun and always a scene when I get hurt.
I made it the doctors with 2 minutes to spare. I left the doctors with a another back surgery scheduled.
Now onto class that is if I don't crawl into bed after a few shots of Vodka.
So Carter is deciding he wants to potty trained and has no fear of carrying his load to me in his hands. Gross.
Olivia decided to take the dog for a walk, however the dog took her for a walk..down the stairs and into a tree...now she has a big fat lip and a bruised knee.
I stepped on a matchbox car. Not fun and always a scene when I get hurt.
I made it the doctors with 2 minutes to spare. I left the doctors with a another back surgery scheduled.
Now onto class that is if I don't crawl into bed after a few shots of Vodka.
Scratch That
I am not surviving..I am crying..or I feel like crying.
I fell like I go from one mess to another. One argument to another. One time out to the next. One chore to another one.
Carter has dumped a cereal bowl all over my carpet. Emptied a whole 9.00 bottle of medicine on the counter and the floor. He has emptied the dogs water bowl all of over the kitchen floor.
Olivia thought it would be funny to let him have a pen. Lets just say I found it NOT so funny.
They find it amusing to WHINE and not talk.
They both have successfully beat each other up over a toy.
They have both decided that no matter what room I have cleaned they will find away to mess up it up.
Pulling out the crafts leads to fight.." I WANTED THAT ONE"
Pulling out a game leads to Carter eating the pieces and Miss America Screaming that he is ruining it..
Dress then up send them out side has led to fighting.
That has led to me wanting to beat them...that is why I am taking a timeout to blog..I want to go find a another job..
from the pictures I found...looks like it will never end.
Family Review
Carter is STILL sleeping { it is 10am} I don't want to do anymore chores for the fear of waking him up. So here I am filling you in on the happenings at our house..
Matthew LOVES snowboarding and everything Mt. Baker has to offer. Jeremy went skiing with him last week and they both where so tired the fell asleep in the chair and on the couch. Jeremy has not been skiing in 20 years!! I was so proud of him for going and when you lose 150 pounds I think you can do anything!!
Matthew is preparing to go one his first Missions trip with our church up to Vancouver for the Olympics. This Missions is a trip of a lifetime but it did come with 4 years of hard work . He is also taken on a new role as the Boy Scout Troop Chaplin's Aide. Way to go!!
Olivia had her first dance class last week and lets just say LOVED it is an understatement. She is still sassy pants and keeps me on my toes in the coaching/disciplining area. She loves her preschool and her church group on Wednesday nights. She still changes her clothes 6-10 times a day.
Carter will be 2 in 2 weeks! He has reached the throwing a fit for everything in life phase. He has been battling 3cold in 3 months..I don't understand why he gets every cold that goes around. He loves to tackle his sister and that has carried into the nursery at church with the other kids..I went in to the nursery with him last week just to make sure I didn't make any enemies.
Well I hear him calling my name...
oh, and I am Surviving!!
Matthew LOVES snowboarding and everything Mt. Baker has to offer. Jeremy went skiing with him last week and they both where so tired the fell asleep in the chair and on the couch. Jeremy has not been skiing in 20 years!! I was so proud of him for going and when you lose 150 pounds I think you can do anything!!
Matthew is preparing to go one his first Missions trip with our church up to Vancouver for the Olympics. This Missions is a trip of a lifetime but it did come with 4 years of hard work . He is also taken on a new role as the Boy Scout Troop Chaplin's Aide. Way to go!!
Olivia had her first dance class last week and lets just say LOVED it is an understatement. She is still sassy pants and keeps me on my toes in the coaching/disciplining area. She loves her preschool and her church group on Wednesday nights. She still changes her clothes 6-10 times a day.
Carter will be 2 in 2 weeks! He has reached the throwing a fit for everything in life phase. He has been battling 3cold in 3 months..I don't understand why he gets every cold that goes around. He loves to tackle his sister and that has carried into the nursery at church with the other kids..I went in to the nursery with him last week just to make sure I didn't make any enemies.
Well I hear him calling my name...
oh, and I am Surviving!!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Jesus Loves the Little Children..
ALL of the children of the world.....
Today I went to the funeral for baby Case..a baby who I know is with Jesus. I know Jesus Loves his children.
My Dear sweet Children,
As each one of you where developing in me I could not wait to see your face, count your toes and hold you in my aching arms. I was in love with each wiggle I felt inside of me. it was just me and you for 30+ weeks...
Each one of you has brought to me such joy and heartache as we have navigated our way through parenthood.
I want each one of you to know that I adore you. I adore every expression , every Innocent thought, gesture and hug.
life will not be perfect. It will be hard and you will feel alone and defeated and as your mom I can never take away the pain. Jesus can and he will. He will walk with you through each phase of your life, never forsaking you.
As I sit here I can't help but tell you that houses, cars, clothes, status will NOT make you better people. Yes, some days I think how can I provide for all of you but I know that each one of you are a blessing and not a burden. You are blessing to me and your dad. Our lives are better with all 3 of you in it.
The way Jesus loves you is the same way I love you...
Love,
Your mom
Today I went to the funeral for baby Case..a baby who I know is with Jesus. I know Jesus Loves his children.
My Dear sweet Children,
As each one of you where developing in me I could not wait to see your face, count your toes and hold you in my aching arms. I was in love with each wiggle I felt inside of me. it was just me and you for 30+ weeks...
Each one of you has brought to me such joy and heartache as we have navigated our way through parenthood.
I want each one of you to know that I adore you. I adore every expression , every Innocent thought, gesture and hug.
life will not be perfect. It will be hard and you will feel alone and defeated and as your mom I can never take away the pain. Jesus can and he will. He will walk with you through each phase of your life, never forsaking you.
As I sit here I can't help but tell you that houses, cars, clothes, status will NOT make you better people. Yes, some days I think how can I provide for all of you but I know that each one of you are a blessing and not a burden. You are blessing to me and your dad. Our lives are better with all 3 of you in it.
The way Jesus loves you is the same way I love you...
Love,
Your mom
Monday, January 18, 2010
I loved it
every single breathe of fresh air I took while on my 2 hour outing.
I signed Miss America up for dance last week. I went to Wal-Mart and purchased her ballet slippers, tights and her leotard. I picked up stuff to make a few tutu's...
They are darling. I am so excited to have her in something!! Matthew started Karate at 3 and I loved every minute of that...I have to say I am loving the whole get out and do something part of my life. This is the what I love about being a mom.
I gave the "I feel your pain" look to many moms today and smiled with sympathy....inside I relished the thought of NO whining, no begging, no pleading was around me personally...
Now on to mom duties..Carter slept for 30 minutes until throwing up everywhere..Miss America is on the verge of a serious melt down ...
Punishment..I swear...
Are they trying to tell me not to take an afternoon off?
To bad..it will not work.
I signed Miss America up for dance last week. I went to Wal-Mart and purchased her ballet slippers, tights and her leotard. I picked up stuff to make a few tutu's...
They are darling. I am so excited to have her in something!! Matthew started Karate at 3 and I loved every minute of that...I have to say I am loving the whole get out and do something part of my life. This is the what I love about being a mom.
I gave the "I feel your pain" look to many moms today and smiled with sympathy....inside I relished the thought of NO whining, no begging, no pleading was around me personally...
Now on to mom duties..Carter slept for 30 minutes until throwing up everywhere..Miss America is on the verge of a serious melt down ...
Punishment..I swear...
Are they trying to tell me not to take an afternoon off?
To bad..it will not work.
Selfish and proud of it
No School today so that means no 6 am alarm clock being thrown what wakes me up. No pressing errands well, Old Navy is having huge sale so that is a bit pressing. Tried to say No in my head but seriously, it is the 50% off 50% off sale.
Saying No to taking my kids with me. I don't care if they stand by the back door , turn on the waterworks and act like I am the biggest meanie ever..they are not going.
Saying No to Costco...not making this an errand day.
Say yes to...
turning up the radio very loud.
Ordering a coffee without a 4year old trying to place her order and then fighting with said 4 year old about how there can only be one coffee drinker in the House.
To finding super good deals for my kids..buying clothes for next year...25 cents hats & Gloves?
NICE!
Do I feel guilty that I am taking a few hours off? not taking a to-list with me?
Nope. Not at all.
Saying No to taking my kids with me. I don't care if they stand by the back door , turn on the waterworks and act like I am the biggest meanie ever..they are not going.
Saying No to Costco...not making this an errand day.
Say yes to...
turning up the radio very loud.
Ordering a coffee without a 4year old trying to place her order and then fighting with said 4 year old about how there can only be one coffee drinker in the House.
To finding super good deals for my kids..buying clothes for next year...25 cents hats & Gloves?
NICE!
Do I feel guilty that I am taking a few hours off? not taking a to-list with me?
Nope. Not at all.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Friday Facts
I have not done a Friday Fact since November.
Pathetic.
This week in review has been an emotional one. Last Friday I spent a wonderful evening with all my friends and a great date night with my hubby. News that family has only been given a short time with us, a family is in suffering over the loss of there 6month old baby and the devastation in Haiti . Days seemed to be filled with extreme highs & lows.
Thankful For:
My family and friends. The girls are coming over today to bake breads. A good thing considering the frozen bananas are falling out of my freezer every time I open it.
I get to see the doctor next week and after having seeing another specialist yesterday I think we may have to do a fusion on my back. I know that would Be the best for me but rods and screws in my back and me being down for MONTHS not days or weeks might be a it challenging.
Matthew made it through his first snowboarding lesson and he is loving going to the mountain every week.
Listening To:
Tigger & Pooh on TV and the wind outside. Where did that come from??
What's For Dinner:
Not sure. I have Bunko tonight so I will be super mom and make scrambled eggs and toast.
Looking Forward To:
A family wedding, 3 day women's conference, Carter's 2nd Birthday and 6pm when hubby walks through the door...
I am needing or wanting:
I am needing motivation to finish Liv's room so I can do Carter's..
Missing: 5 acres so my kids can roam...play with sticks and build forts..plants pumpkin's and a garden...oh, wait I never had that..just dreaming..
Quote of The Day:
"DO NOT BITE YOUR SISTER !! "
WHAT ARE YOU FRIDAY FACTS?
Pathetic.
This week in review has been an emotional one. Last Friday I spent a wonderful evening with all my friends and a great date night with my hubby. News that family has only been given a short time with us, a family is in suffering over the loss of there 6month old baby and the devastation in Haiti . Days seemed to be filled with extreme highs & lows.
Thankful For:
My family and friends. The girls are coming over today to bake breads. A good thing considering the frozen bananas are falling out of my freezer every time I open it.
I get to see the doctor next week and after having seeing another specialist yesterday I think we may have to do a fusion on my back. I know that would Be the best for me but rods and screws in my back and me being down for MONTHS not days or weeks might be a it challenging.
Matthew made it through his first snowboarding lesson and he is loving going to the mountain every week.
Listening To:
Tigger & Pooh on TV and the wind outside. Where did that come from??
What's For Dinner:
Not sure. I have Bunko tonight so I will be super mom and make scrambled eggs and toast.
Looking Forward To:
A family wedding, 3 day women's conference, Carter's 2nd Birthday and 6pm when hubby walks through the door...
I am needing or wanting:
I am needing motivation to finish Liv's room so I can do Carter's..
Missing: 5 acres so my kids can roam...play with sticks and build forts..plants pumpkin's and a garden...oh, wait I never had that..just dreaming..
Quote of The Day:
"DO NOT BITE YOUR SISTER !! "
WHAT ARE YOU FRIDAY FACTS?
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