Love & Hate

I love the sound of belly laughs.

I hate the sound of breaking glass, that means they are into something they should not be.

I love the sound of their sweet little voices.
...if any of you have a puberty stricken boy in your house you also will love the voice changing part, I know I shouldn't laugh.

I hate the words " mommy, look what I drew for you on your wall...my masterpiece"

I love the learning of talking and all the first words.

I love the fact they learn to put on their own clothes

I hate the fact they pick up clean folded laundry and re-enter into the dirty clothes.

I Love the fact they still never outgrow hugs.

I hate the fact they spill everything.

I love the fact they love their grandparents.

I hate the fact my mom is always telling me I am to harsh.

I love the fact she is protective of them.

I hate that they want a dog and tell me they will take care of it and never do.

I love how they are excited for simple things, blankets, daddy and tickles.

I hate the fingerprints all over my slider door.

Love the fact the bang on the door when daddy pulls up after work.

I hate how much water gets on the floor at bath.

I Love how a bath can wipe away any tear.

Love & Hate.

what are yours?

Can't imagine..

I was called yesterday with some really sad news...a family had lost their 6 month old baby.

Heartbreaking.

All day today I could not shake that heavy heart feeling. I tried many times to talk myself out of crying. You know saying things to your self like God had a plan, God is in control and then I became mad...I cried in my van on the way home , bawled.

I know that we can't see God's plan and that is where faith comes into play but as with anything we are tested time and time again...these parents, these precious people and all the extended family and friends...my heart hurts for you.

My 'stuff' seems so small in comparison to what they are feeling.

I do not know the depth of losing a child. I do not know the depth of losing a nephew or a grandson.

I spoke softer today to my children. Hugged my 13year old as he came home 1 hour late ( he is never late) then scolded him..I sat on the couch and quit cleaning and facecracking and actually watched a cheesy show with my kids..

I didn't complain about cooking for 3 very hungry children....because I have 3 children.

I prayed harder then I have in sometime....

Taylor Swift

So I am trying to blog everyday as long is doesn't interfere with my Facecrack Family.

I am listening to Matthew record Miss America singing Taylor Swift songs. Good thing I have a very smart 13 year old in the house. He has showed me how to record , upload to YouTube and now working on the posting part so you can see the next Taylor Swift in action. Seriously, everyday I must endure 66 minutes of pure torture as she watches the DVD of her beloved Taylor Swift...then I must hear 3 songs repeated, repeated and repeated.

Blah.

Good thing Miss America is cute.

So I am really thinking that my blog will go private. Not a big deal I will send out an email and then you will be added to the list of readers. Very easy.

What is not very easy? Having people stalk you and then talk about you and then the next thing you know...Bam, your deleted from their friends list on MySpace. Pathetic. Really when you know both these girls for over 10 years.

So there is the reason behind going private. Please don't hesitate to ask for an invite.

I enjoy blogging and find it therapeutic.

I don't enjoy the drama.

where are you going?

Monday's.

Clean up everything from the weekend. Do the 7 piles of laundry that accumulated from the weekend. run the dish washer 3 times and maybe 4 after dinner is done.

I enjoy bringing Miss America to preschool on Mondays. It really is a great way to start the week. I have no idea what I will be doing for preschool next year. Still not sure if I will be switching preschools or staying with same one. We shall see.

My heart is heavy today for a family member who was given only weeks before she is called to be with Jesus. My thoughts always go back to Jesus. She gets to rejoice with him and be given a heavenly body...one without pain. I know when I die I will be with Jesus. What about you? Do you know where your going? Just for the non believers out there...ask yourself..what do have to gain or lose by believing? I think you have everything to gain. Say if Heaven and hell are real ( i believe they are) where do you want to spend ETERNITY? In a fire pit full of evil and pain or in heaven, with joy and happiness? Where do you want your family to go? What about your children?

This week I shall embark on a new budget. Yikes..after tracking my spending for the last week I have a better idea on how it should go...you know 200 a month for coffee and 10 bucks for groceries. HA...You get the idea...Lots of number crunching going on here. It is nice...We have made a goal to pay of the truck and make 2 extra mortgage payments this year.

Everything I think to type seems so small in to comparison of family that is going to lose their mom, wife , grandma and friend...

So with that..I am off to hug my children, write a few notes to people and let them know how much I love them..

Rubic "not so" Cube

He only likes taking showers. He will gather up his cars just to take a shower. Some how the rubics cube ended up in the shower.... Stickers everywhere...in his hair, ears and mouth.....

Yep, thats how White trashy I am...

Don't worry..I would never let him choke on the stickers...

Roxsey Rocks...

Thanks Brooke for another amazing photo shoot!!

Check her out at ROXSEY

No More sick Kids PLEASE

What is up with these last few months??

Carter has been sick for 6 weeks out of the last 8. 2 ear infections, head cold and an eye cold.

Olivia now has an earache and a cough.

Matthew has a head cold and a cough..

I have never had so much sickness in my house. Jeremy has been sick 3 times too!

I ward it off with Emergn-C and vitamins..I am force feeding vitamins to the kids and hand washing skills are being forced upon them also.

No more. I am going Nutso!!

His timing..not mine

If you wait until the wind and weather are just right, you will never plant anything and never harvest anything.

Ecclesiastes 11:4

Faced with a few tough choices this upcoming month I can't help but keep thinking that all of this has to be God's timing and not mine.

There will never be a good time for me.

A Bigger picture I cannot see....

Faith has to get me there.

Big Change. Big Plans.

Happy frigging New Year to me.

Cheers.

Customer service PLEASE

I beg of you..please just smile. Don't act like I am pain in your A** even before I reach the counter. Please do not have it in your head that I am walking up 1) to place a difficult order 2) complain about your prices, 3)ask for an off the wall return with no receipt or waste your valuable time....

I am kind, forgiving, compassionate to any clerk, waitress or any service provider for that matter...

Just fake it till you make it...

Life gets better.

Screw organizing

My foot is on the counter, my hands are gripped on the handle and my junk drawer is stuck, I can't open it. I need to see if I can find a ( not telling you cuz this item should really have a home, not junk drawer home). Darn it. I now must clean it. I am really good about giving myself one drawer. Okay so unorganized people are optimistic.

Have a friend who has her each drawer organized. No, junk anything in her house. What so you do with barbies Missing leg, one dice, a screw and maybe I piece of candy? Sounds dumb after I say it, how about throw it away? Maybe put it with it's home?

I say why can't i be more organized? Why can't I have each Little people with the collective home? Why does my junk drawer have to take a shovel to look through it? Why does my Garage have to get cleaned 5 times in a year? Screw it.

Okay, so just a quick rant about one of my New Years Resolution.

Trust me I will rant about the next one too! ( I am mean who loves to budget anyways?)