Our Little Greenhouse

We have started our tomato's and our first attempt at watermelon. Matthew is enjoying this part of our "homeschooling" He is loving the hands on work. Not loving the fact he has to read about weeds, grass and soil. He is taking great pride in watering and making sure that the greenhouse is brought into the garage at night, just in case we get a deep freeze.

Farmer John

Hammer, Overalls, Cars and one boy equals pure love...

The days are flying by so fast and I am enjoying having a 2 year old in the house...The days are never boring. They are packed with energy, meltdowns and snuggles. To think this is my baby...the last one...makes me savior it and get all mushy.

Yep..she really wore this

I wasn't going to fight her. I pick my battles. This was not one of them. You wanna wear your Tutu Ballerina outfit to the doctors and grocery store, go ahead.

Hey, Put your boots on too!

It will "complete" your look.



Oh, How I Love thee.....

I want her to be a Girl Scout

I really really really hope Miss America wants to be a Girl Scout. If she doesn't Then Will sign her up to sell cookies hoping she gets a discount

I will purchase them. I will eat them. Not one or two or three but the entire box.

I have weakness. There has to be a fan page on Facebook for" Stay at Home moms who eat entire boxes of Girl Scout Cookies"

Seriously.

There is a problem with my butt & thighs when I consume a whole box in one sitting.

In my defense.

They have made the packages smaller.

Bad Blogger...

Pictures have NOTHING to do with the blog title...

Here is Ms. Macy Jean...Cousin Kristin's newest family member....Aren't these just the cutest pictures??? Brooke at ROXSEY is just so darn talented! I love the hat! I just had to order this for her from Sarah at SLO DAY DESIGNS....awww... I have SOOO many talented friends!!

Yes, I have been unfaithful in blogging lately.

Sorry.

I have a few minutes before I must pick up Miss America from School. I think I have a few minutes, that is if Mr. Carter doesn't take off his Crappy diaper and bring it to me.

So What is going on besides forgetting to bring Cousin Kristin Dinner??

Alot. I have had 3 appointments so far just for the upcoming surgery and 3 more pre-op scheduled for next week. Doctors never seem to run on time so I make them for early morning however even doing that still makes for a long day.

Matthew had the stomach flu. It came on fast just like everyone else in the House. I was delivering dinner to another family and he looked at me and said "mom I don't feel good. " I told him to at least let me back out of the their driveway....I made it barely. Poor kid felt so bad. He still is not having an appetite. But that's what happens with that virus. No fun.

Olivia still has a the rash. I was referred to a dermatologist. So hoping it is nothing to serious.

I will be taking Carter back to Children's sometime after my surgery for a follow up . He still throws up but not near as much. He has gained 2 pounds in 4 months.

Jeremy's will be celebrating his 36th birthday this week...I keep teasing him that he is really close to 40 and if I see a Corvette parked in the driveway I will understand his mid-life crisis.

My heart is heavy today. Jeremy lost his Aunt after a ten year battle with Cancer. She was only 58 years old. So heartbreaking. I could not imagine losing my mom or my mother in law at this time in our life or anytime. I think at this time in our life we still need them just about everyday. We need them to always be a phone call away...my prayers have been spoken for the entire family.

I have a very busy 2 weeks before surgery so I am sorry to all you faithful readers if I am still unfaithful in blogging...I will try to get "back at it " when I start feeling better...or when I hire a planner for my planner...

Happy Monday!!

Breathe and make another to do list

My planner is beyond slammed. Just ask the sweet, kind, forgiving, family who called me at 6pm last night...asking if I was still planning on bringing dinner to them.

Oops.

Big Oops.

I pulled through.

Dinner was on their table by 6:30

seriously.

I am going to Breathe and make my list for the next week.

I swear you have your own bed.

Kids in my bed. Funny in parenting "things just happen" and yet you know you really should not get in the habit of things that will ultimately interfere with your life. Like kids sleeping in your bed.

Jeremy took a trip last week to California. Miss America was devastated that he was leaving. She has this stuffed camel , that Jeremy purchased her in Jordan last May. This camel has been on 3 trips with Jeremy. He is so good at taking pictures of Mr. camel and sending them to her. This last trip we kinda forgot to mention anything until the day we had to pack him up. She was sobbing. Throwing herself into our bed begging him to never forget her. She runs downstairs , finds Mr. camel and brings him to Jeremy so he could pack him. i seriously forgot about the camel , however she didn't.

He is trying to console her. He then mentions how she can sleep in our bed while he is away.

Dad's spot. Oh, how they love Dad's spot. It is a game they play everyday he comes home. The little ones run into our bed, get in his spot and yell for him to come in and get them. He always does.

Then Matthew being gone for a week led Miss America to our room. We made a spot for her on the floor. Matthew came home, she finally slept in her own bed. Then last night back in our bed. So ONE night in 2 weeks she slept in her own room.

I can't bring myself to tell her no. So last night I told her that this is the last night she can do this....

Jeremy pretty much called me out...

" Honey, your lying"

He was right.

Friday Facts

Thankful For:

So far being able to switch Matthew from the middle school to the academy this week. I am SOOO happy to see him SOOO happy. It is by far one of the best things I have done for him. He has only been there for three days but his attitude has changed at home. yes, he still picks on his sister and gives me the eye rolls or the coughing up a hairball answers. He is 13.

Listening To: Dishwasher. Matthew getting ready to leave and Miss America watching Arthur.


What's For Dinner:

Jeremy's in charge...He is a better cook then me however I clean up my messes.

Looking Forward To:

Spring cleaning!! Time to purge, time to make room for more random stuff we really don't need , but think if it 25 cents we REALLY need it. Stuff that is so random we only own it for about a week or so then I consign it or give it away. Toys.

Missing:

I ordered a new card..Yippeee...now I am missing 1 Cute shoe for Carter..I am missing "me" time...lost it a few years ago...it doesn't really have to "me time" but time to get my stuff done. Darn facecrack we really need to stop spending so much time together. I have stuff to do.

Quote of The Week:

"HE hit me first !"

Friday Facts...What are yours?

Maybe an end in sight?

I haven't posted much lately. Not because I have not wanted to. I have. I really have. I don't want to sound negative all the freakin time...I am thankful and many moments out of the day my heart and spirit are beaming.



I withdraw, I try not to but I do.



Tonight my tears came from out of know where. Funny how small things set you off. I wasn't trying to make my husband feel bad when I called him to see where he was on his journey home (so I could start his dinner) but as soon as I started to ask him , I started bawling. Him having no idea what the hell just happened, asked me ever so gently if I was okay. I mean he could have said what is wrong with you?? Are you crazy? Do I need to call my mom to come over? Should I check you into the mental hospital?



Of course I was okay, I was just overwhelmed. I found out today that my surgery has been set for the 12th of March. I have had surgeries, lots of them but I think I was overwhelmed that this one could be the ONE..you know Like the one that works!??



I cried and cried. I know he knows that I am in pain everyday and every moment. He knows I suck it up ALOT of the time. He knows how this injury has affected my parenting and my life. He knows how much I long to feel "better" he knows everything about the chronic condition.



He also knows I don't want to stop living. He knows I want to get out of bed everyday and try to be the best I can be. He sees me push myself till I can't push anymore. He sees how people judge me for not having a visible injury to the eye.



He didn't have to say anything on the phone tonight...I know he would fix it in a moment if he could. I know that he continues to take care of me and I know that he is EXCITED to see an end in sight. I don't share his excitement. I wish I did. The pessimistic side of me wonders if I will endure yet another year of this.



I don't want to. I want to get better. I want to be better.



And you know what I love more then anything?? On the days I feel defeated, he lifts me up and on the days he feels defeated I lift him up...



Sound cheesy?



That's okay. I'll take it.

2nd Birthday

Carter turned 2 this month..Oh, how he keeps me on my toes...

Loves Trains!

My Nephew Landon

My brother & Sister

Loves the Uncle Mikey

My first Niece...I love you Tanna

Trucks have to be his second Love

He received his own chair from Grammy & Papa...this is such a blessing for me more then anything. No more trying to drag each other out of Olivia's chair by pulling hair...fighting over one chair for the last year is no longer "normal" fighting..now they fight over Liv's Leapster. I can see why my mom bought 3 of everything. It was for her sanity.