just close my eyes

I could not close my eyes last night. I tried. I was tired. I couldn't sleep. So many things on my mind. I seriously could have done without a night like last night.



* How do I design a new blog page. How would one go about it ( without calling their girlfriend who is super de duper feakin awesome!) without spending money on it? Do they teach classes for this? I am know you can go to the Facecrack Facebook class at the community college.

* How do I decorate Olivia's new room? This one had visions of Pottery Barn all over it. Visions of cuteness and credit cards so that put a kabash on that, as we are striving to NEVEREVER have debt.

* How will Matthew be today? He was sad about Mikey. He felt alone. I felt sad.

* Why must my husband snore tonight? He doesn't every night but tonight? I am in deep thought here..processing my life and you are snoring? How dare you sleep through my night of complete life planning???

* Did I lock the doors? I ask myself that like 10 times. Finally I get up and yep, it is locked and I call myself a paranoid freak.

* Close my eyes....and I wonder what my children will be when they grow up?

* Open my eyes to see my Miss America over me asking for a cup and her blanket. I give her a cup and blanket. She lays back down I stumble back to bed, look at the clock and its 8:15am.

Worry Ends Where Faith Begins..

re-balancing. re-adjusting.

Sad day for my boy.

Worried day.

Fearful day.

Knowing I have faith and faith gives me hope.

Mikey moved out tonight.

Friday Facts...

So I am not doing Thursday with Tiffiny anymore. I know your pulling out your tissues right now and asking yourselves "how can this be?" I decided to change it to Friday Facts...I want you to join us!

Allison turned Thursday's with Tiffiny into Friday Facts.....I love this idea and hope that it will get you to join with us and put your week into review.


Thankful For:

Vitamins. Really. I found Vitamin d3 in liquid yesterday and it taste great!! My medicine cupboard is filled with all sorts of painkillers vitamins to ward off the piggy flu.


Listening To:

The hum of the dishwasher, Handy Manny and Olivia begging me to wear her Christmas dress. I should NEVER EVER let her be with me when I purchase something so spectacular as a Christmas gown. Lesson learned.

What's For Dinner:

I am not cooking..I have a jewelry party scheduled here for a lady who is raising money for an adoption of a baby. Maybe I will make circle sandwiches and they can eat them when they are with their dad.


Looking Forward To:

My Birthday. I love my birthday.

I am needing or wanting:

I am NEEDING a pedicure. You know it is in need when your heals get caught on your sheets while sleeping. Now it is between taking the time to do it myself or going in.

Missing:

a BRAND new pair of shoes I bought for Carter..he wore them once for family pictures and now I can't find them.

SAHM meant to be boring?

Sometimes being a SAHM (stay at home mom) is kinda boring. I am not going to sugar coat it and tell everyone that it is the best thing in the world. There is a difference between it being the best thing for your child and the best thing in the world.

I am so ever grateful that at this time in my life, no matter how I got here I am home with my kids. I love being home when my 13 year old walks in the door. I am one of the most consistent things in his ever so changing life.

I love playing with Olivia and kissing Carter all day. I find myself struggling with how boring it is all day, everyday.

Really, I am to start a project? Okay, lets see..If I paint...

* Purchase supplies- This would mean taking my kids in public...they just might start hucking stuff, pulling each others hair, ripping paint samples off the wall, begging for a quarter....

* prep the walls- um yeah, my 1 year old would have the blue tape over his mouth and eyes courtesy of his 4 year old sister. He would find all the screws to the outlet covers and eat them.

* Ready to paint- this can only be done at naptime and considering they never nap at the same time It doesn't get done. The paint would be part of their wardrobe and my decor, mainly due to the fact It doesn't come off carpet.

See....I can only do so much cleaning....Like now...the house is clean, laundry going, hum of the dishwasher..dinner planned and here I am Bored.

If I start a game with Liv Carter will eat the pieces, throw the cards and kick the game board.

My kids are really not out of control..they are just children...looking for a few or a hundred time outs a day.

We are busy people. I am in class one night a week, table leader for our Local MOPS chapter, one son in football, 1 in preschool....

Are most of your home likes this??

Say yes, so I don't feel so bad!!

a bit to big

* Pictures in reverse order

Carter decided to dive into the sink for a bath...fully clothed and ready for bed. I changed him went to put the laundry downstairs and came back to find him in the sink again!!

What is so FUNNY?? I just wanted a bath.

Making Cashola

Matthew learned how to make roses, wallets, and bracelets from duct tape. Start selling roses at school and the next thing you know he has a business. 4 orders yesterday. Don't be surprised if your child asks for 3 bucks. It is going to help mom cover the cost of the duct tape.

I love this kid!!!

yeah, we claim food

Imagine my surprise when I opened the pantry and found this.....

Really? We claim food? I am known to ration out food. You know things like Fruit by the Foot, Pre-packaged snacks and goodies. I have a stash under my bathroom sink. This not due the fact I want to eat it by myself but due to the fact they can finish off a box of snacks in 2 hours.

Matthew wanted the good soup and dad said " it is mine" Matthew then ran over grabbed a sharpie...that was the last I heard and when I woke up here is what I found.

Only in my house.

Go Lions GO!!

All tied up....that would explain why I only got 2 pictures of football...

Go Matthew!!

There he is!!

My Number 9!

Hide and seek

They are hiding from Matthew....

All 3 of them managed to hide in the smallest space in house....

Good thing he found them in record time or Jenn just might be a hunched over old woman...

Go ahead blog it...

Don't be surprised when your not so perfect mommy moment gets blown COMPLETELY out of context and is posted by another fellow blogger.

Don't get hurt feelings when the other blogger lives in the same small town.

Don't be surprised when a friend emails you the link to the blog knowing full well it is you.

This is why I do not share my irritations or opinions about others with out having an Anonymous blog.

Why did I remove the previous post?

* My fellow mommy Friends gave her a piece of their mind in support of me. ( I felt the love!)

* Small town...small world..small talk


So go ahead blog what you want...but remember EVERYONE can read it.