better

rain. Washes everything away. Woke up today better. I wish I could say I slept really good but Nope I can't and probably won't until Carter moves from our room to his dorm room. Some young Innocent lovely hoodlum kids where pacing back and forth last night making my dog bark. starting at 1:30 and ending at 3:30am. I could see them from the bathroom window. Maybe they did rip me off. Maybe I should check. I not in a hurry. Unless I really thought they could have used 2 car seats, a total of 2 small fries on the floor, 2 day old mocha and a broken cd player with no remote. Anyways, Interrupted sleep is better then no sleep.

Making Jam today. Tripled the batch. I really need to get myself this really cool thing , it is a strainer colander. It ROCKS! I started making jam last year and now every year until I die I will make jam. We are even going to try raspberry this year.

I have my once a month girl get together tonight. Fun! I will be one tired and sore girl tomorrow. I already promised I wouldn't be crabby. My family must really know me. They see my busy week coming and they are already preparing. I do get just a tad bit touchy when I don't get sleep.

so Yesterday's post. Yes it was deep. I have to think what Matthew's going through is just a trigger. I thought alot about it yesterday. Protection. Simple yet so complicated. I don't know how to protect him so I just do what I feel I can. And that makes me sad. It makes me hurt inside that I was never shown protection and somehow that skill in parenting seems so natural.

We will see...we will arrive and I can look back and say I did the best I knew how and mean it.